Somehow Friday seems to always sneak up on me. It feels like just a couple of days ago I was writing my last blog and now here we are again. And again I feel like I have nothing noteworthy to talk about.

This was another pretty unproductive week for me and as much as I hate to say it, I’m again having that feeling that desire to just go away for a while. I was pretty bummed out about certain things for a good portion of the week and as a result spent most of my nights wasting away as I watched tons of YouTube videos. And as much as I do enjoy watching YouTube videos, the difference between “wow, this is fun” and “wow, what have I done with my life for the last three hours?” is easy to miss. So I just really feel like a change of scenery would be good for me. But as with most of the solutions to my problems, it’s just not exactly practical right now, which sucks. I just wish I didn’t feel so tied down sometimes. I fully acknowledge that that can often just be a mental hurdle that I unintentionally put up myself, one that could be overcome if I really put my all into it. It’s just been tough for me lately, trying to keep a good mentality.

I’m not trying to be dramatic here, but I really wish I could live more spontaneously; go on adventures, explore the world, do everything I want to do creatively… just live more, really. I often think about where I’m at in life now and wonder if I haven’t wasted so many years that I could have done more with. Heck, I don’t even wonder, I know that there are plenty of years which I could have made more out of. Especially my college years. But that’s a whole other blog right there. The point is, I do have a lot of regrets related to not living life to the fullest and as much as that weighs on me, I really want to get myself to a place where I feel like I can truly live life to the fullest. If that means making small changes in my life here and there while I’m still where I’m at in life right now then so be it, but the long-term goal is to almost completely change my position in life. More on that later, probably.

Videos I Posted This Week:

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Survivor: All-Stars – Episode 14 (Shii-Stans) | Tarqaron Reaction
SUPERtheticals: 50 New Questions for Strange Conversations (#3) | Tarqaron Discussion