Groove

Let’s talk about grooves. I’m not much of a dancer, but I know a thing or two about finding a groove. The odd thing about grooves, though, is that once you fall out of one, you might find yourself in a “funk.” I feel like that was the case with me doing videos on my solo channel a couple of years ago, and then with me doing videos on my solo channel a month ago. Once I get into doing videos consistently, I will stick to it for some period of time. But as soon as I fall off the horse and miss a week or two, then it all seems to halt. Now, as you can see below, it’s not like video production has halted for me at all. I have been pretty consistent with Tarqaron videos ever since its inception really, and that might because we have a specific scheduled time for that each week that we rarely stray from and therefore I always have something to work on for the channel. When I came back to my solo channel a couple of months ago I fully intended to post every week for the foreseeable future, and even though I knew it would be a lot of work on top of Tarqaron videos, I was determined to make it work. But something about this summer heat seemed to discourage me a bit from wanting to stuff myself in a small room more than I needed to. Then again, that’s why I wanted to film outside more often. I just need to figure out a better spot to do so.

So that’s what I mean by grooves. Once I find myself in a groove, I’m on fire. And with Tarqaron I have yet to really lose that groove, but it comes in waves with my solo channel, especially since I have to balance both. I hope to get back to solo videos soon enough, but that’s something that I’ve definitely come to notice, that once you fall off the horse it’s just so easy to stay off the horse. That’s maybe why I’ve been so determined to get this blog out on time every week for the past five months. Because maybe, just maybe if I miss one then I’ll start to miss them all. And I don’t want to start that domino effect if I can avoid it. This ties back into the idea of establishing a more consistent schedule and how that could be helpful in the long-run as well. Keeping myself in that groove is always good, which is why if I can get myself back in that groove then I will be golden.

Honestly I had one of my worst days mentally in a long time this past week. A couple of things triggered some weak points for me, I guess you could say, and it really weighed on me. As crushing as it felt on that day, I just went for a drive to give myself my own space to deal with everything and listened to some music to just let it all out. Sometimes it’s good to just let it all out. But hey, I had that rough day and now I try to just move on. Trying not to dwell on these things as much, but sometimes that’s easier said than done. One day at a time.