What if you had 24 hours to live? What would you do? This is a question I’m sure you’ve asked yourself or have been asked at least one time in your life, but the question usually comes with some level of brevity, like oh man that would be wild, I would go bungee jumping or some shit, I would fuck some shit up, like fuck it bro, YOLO, I’d do some bucket list shit or some shit. But imagine you are really presented with this scenario. To not only be aware that it would be your last day alive but to also be completely coherent while knowing this fact is an “opportunity” not often afforded to people. You might be terminally ill, and you might be given some time frame as to when you’re expected to die in some very particular instances, but even then you are more often than not deteriorating on some level, and you certainly wouldn’t know when exactly you were going to die, down to the day! So as much as the “what would you do if you had 24 hours to live” quandary can just be a wacky conversation starter, it really can be a thought-provoking hypothetical dilemma when you take the time to think about it. It can be sad to think about what it would be like to know of your impending doom, but also really intriguing to try to put yourself in that position. And that’s exactly what I’m trying to do here.

My first priority would honestly be to show appreciation to everyone who has had a positive impact on my life. I already try to make a more conscious effort to do that regularly, just showing my appreciation whenever I can. But 24 hours to live means it’s crunch time. Cut the bullshit, tell everyone my full and unapologetic truth. If I appreciate you on any level you’ll be hearing from me, no doubt about it. That being said I have a lot of ground to cover, so that could range anywhere from a one-sentence message to a full-blown conversation. But no hard feelings regardless. This time would be reserved for anyone I wouldn’t be able to come in actual contact with on my final day. As tasteless as it might sound, I feel like I would have to put out an “I have 24 hours left to live” video on my YouTube channel with one last goodbye because making videos has undeniably been a huge part of my life and it would be only fitting.

With the formalities out of the way, I can go on with living the remaining hours of my life. With some pep in my step I feel like I could have condensed that goodbye stuff into only a couple of hours. What to do with the rest of my day, though? I don’t know, even though the instinct might be to try to check off bucket list things, I feel like that would be something reserved for if I had a year or even a week to live. Because realistically, as much as I want to see more of the world, I don’t think it would necessarily be worth it to spend a significant portion of my final hours stuck on plane ride to somewhere just to spend a couple hours there. So as much as I want to see Japan, or go to Disney World, it just might not be in the cards for this scenario. With most bucket list things off the table, I’ve been kind of stumped as to how I’d spend the majority of this day, but I think I’ve come to a bit of a conclusion.

As ridiculous as it sounds, I would 100% host my own “going away” party and invite literally everyone I care about to join me. Not just a basic party of course, it would have to be a tour de force of experiencing all of my favorite things, with everything from basketball to just some good old-fashioned laughs. The things I enjoy are pretty simple when it comes down to it. As much as I’d like the chance to expand my life experiences much more, this scenario wouldn’t give me enough time to, so I’d just have to live (and then not) with some of the simple things. That being said, I’d do those things in the most outrageous and off-the-wall ways possible, given the time that I have to work with and however many people are able to join me on such short notice. Especially given this opportunity, I’m not the kind of person who would go out quietly. I’d like for my last 24 hours to not only consist of some valuable experiences that I can be happy with *at the end of the day* but also to consist of some valuable experiences for everyone else involved to be able to walk away from and remember forever. If I’m gonna be given this unique opportunity, I might as well make the best of it, right?

Videos I Posted This Week:

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Shrek Series Overview & Ranking – Tarqaron
Our June 2021 Favorites! – Tarqaron
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 10 Reaction (Scout’s Resistance) – Tarqaron

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I am in crunch time today so I won’t be able to do any of the more elaborate blogs I talked about last time, but here I am nonetheless. The unfortunate reality is that as I sit here amidst this crunch time, since I have to work for the rest of the night, I really can’t think of anything to write about. For my own sanity I should really make a more conscious effort to give myself much more time to write these things. But hey, then I would probably be writing about one of the ideas I mentioned last week, then, wouldn’t I? Well, that’s the whole point, isn’t it? I can see I’m getting no where here.

As much as procrastination has been a problem for me in the past, it’s not actually procrastination that has left me with such limited time to write this time around. It’s actually because one of my favorite events to watch online, Smash Summit, was streaming all yesterday and today. And since I was working and then watching The Forever Purge with some friends yesterday (bad movie, by the way), I spent pretty much all day today just catching up on everything I missed plus enjoying everything that has been coming out for it today as well. I have it muted and still playing as I type this, because I just had to pull myself away for at least a little bit if I was going to have any chance of writing the blog today.

Smash Summit (this one specifically is Smash Summit 11) is a four-day event that brings together some of the best Super Smash Bros. Melee players (a 20-year-old game at this point, by the way) for a more intimate invitational tournament environment, which is also padded with a lot of fun side events and skits to round it out. Most notably it features a lot of the players playing games of Mafia at the end of each day, which is always one of my favorite parts of the event. Melee is my favorite game to watch competitively and Summit has always been my favorite event to watch because of the really unique vibe and superior production quality that it offers. This time around it will have the largest prize pool in Melee’s history and there are so many great players present this year that it has been a joy to watch thus far.

I honestly always wish I had thought to take off these days from work so I can watch it all live because there is just so much to catch up on after a whole day of work, on top of editing videos and everything else. But regardless I’m just excited to get home tonight so I can catch up on everything again!

In terms of my mental health, I’m still dealing with smoothing out the real low lows that I experience in any given week, but I am also working on maximizing the highs as well. Just trying to enjoy things more in the moment, but there are still some obvious steps I need to take to really improve many aspects of my life. A small first step would be to give myself more time to write these so I can start bringing out some of those ideas!

Videos I Posted This Week:

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Luca Review – Tarqaron
Reacting to the Top 100 Songs of June 2021
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 9 Reaction (Estrogen City) – Tarqaron
Ball is life
This vocal coach gives me life (ft. So Hyang)

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