A Decade of Making Videos

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It’s crazy to think that’s been over a decade since I started creating YouTube videos. If you go on to my YouTube channel and sort my videos to show the oldest first, you will say videos that literally say “10 years ago” under them, which is just wild to see. Believe it or not, I even had a channel on which I did videos as far back as 2009, but the videos on that channel have since been deleted. So the oldest relics of my YouTube experience that I have are those 10 years ago videos, back when my username was still ZRPGRevamped (a follow-up to the aforementioned channel from 2009 which was called pokemonzrpg). For the years that I went by this name, I was young and it wasn’t as much of a known aspect of my life. I was a part of an online video game collecting community (which I am still part of to this day) and all of my videos revolved around my passion for video games. I was also the host of a gaming podcast for much of those years within that community called “Hey, Listen!” At the time primarily only people within my sphere of online friends and that community knew about my videos and podcast, so it’s wild to think that now making videos is such a big part of my identity.

For the years that I was just doing videos within the gaming community, my rate of uploads and overall interest in making videos was often inconsistent. 2015 is when I started going to college and I got more of a spark for creating videos regularly. I transitioned into doing videos on all of the things I love, not just gaming, and started posting videos daily for some time, and at my worst I was still posting some amount of videos weekly. This is when I really started to find my love for music more than ever before and my channel became largely geared toward that for years to come. To this day, music is the primary subject of my channel and is where most of my viewers have come from, but I still struggle with striking a balance between all of the things I love. It wouldn’t be until 2019 that I would create a YouTube channel with my friend Alec called Tarqaron in which we could talk about everything from film to gaming to television in addition to being able to talk about Survivor which is another passion of mine.

Fast-forward to 2021 and all it takes is one look at any of my social media accounts to see that I make videos, and that between both my solo channel and my collaborative channel making videos is a pretty big part of my life. Some weeks I might post more than others, but it’s pretty much a guarantee that I will upload some amount of videos every week, so I’m pretty proud of that level of commitment. That being said, there are are still plenty of things I want to improve on and lots of ideas and directions I haven’t explored yet, but that’s part of what keeps things exciting and why I’m still so interested in continuing to create videos after all of these years. It’s crazy to think that I’ve been doing videos for over a decade now but it’s almost like creating has been such a constant in my life since then that I can’t imagine my life without it. Here’s to many more years of creating awesome stuff!

Videos I Posted This Week:

Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 12 Reaction (Dethroned Queen) – Tarqaron
SUPERtheticals: 50 New Questions for Strange Conversations (#4) – Tarqaron

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

The Rise and Fall of Paper Mario

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Tonight I decided to talk about what was historically one of my favorite series of video games ever: Paper Mario. While there certainly is a “fall” referenced in the title of this blog, make no mistake… Paper Mario as a series is beloved to me. Few video game series bring me as much joy just to think about. But the unfortunate reality is that I always have to preface my love of the Paper Mario series in saying that my love is for the older games in the series rather than the newer ones. I equate it a lot to a feeling that many Star Wars fans have when talking about the original trilogy versus the prequels. It’s almost a 1:1 comparison for me, really. The first three (Paper Mario, Paper Mario: The Thousand-Year Door, and Super Paper Mario) correspond almost perfectly to the original trilogy. Paper Mario on the Nintendo 64 is the equivalent to A New Hope in that it is a true gem and you can’t go wrong with the one that started it all. The Thousand-Year Door on the Nintendo GameCube is like Empire Strikes Back in that it is the GOAT and really perfected what made the series great. And lastly, Super Paper Mario on the Nintendo Wii is most like Return of the Jedi in the sense that it is the more off-beat of the trilogy and slightly more contentious than the others, but appreciated nonetheless. Although the correlation isn’t quite as direct, the newer trio of games (Paper Mario: Sticker Star on the Nintendo 3DS, Paper Mario: Color Splash on the Nintendo Wii U, and Paper Mario: The Origami King on the Nintendo Switch) would be viewed similarly to the prequel trilogy of Star Wars films in that they are so different stylistically from the first three and, in my opinion, lose a big part of that original spark and can’t compare in quality as a result. Hopefully that comparison is as apt for you as it has always been for me.

For me, the first two in the series stand head and shoulders above the rest. The Thousand-Year Door has always been my favorite but the original is almost equally timeless and is up there with some of my favorite role-playing games. The worlds, characters, dialogue, music and presentation of both games just ooze charm and in many ways can’t be rivaled in my eyes. Super nostalgic, for sure. At the time of Super Paper Mario‘s release, I definitely expressed my concerns with it in that it was quite a departure from what I wanted from the series and was a far cry from the legendary status of TTYD, but in retrospect and juxtaposed with what was to come, I have a much greater appreciation for it. It isn’t exactly what I want when I play Paper Mario, but it had its own charm and certainly had no shortage of clever writing, with a surprisingly detailed story and fun (but different) gameplay. That being said, I and many other Paper Mario fans naturally hoped the series would see a return to form with its next installment, and remained optimistic for the future.

Everything changed when Sticker Star attacked. Years had passed since SPM‘s release, and naturally hope for a revival of the series was dwindling. But lo and behold, Nintendo bring Paper Mario: Sticker Star out of the woodwork and raise fans’ excitement, only to have it come crashing down with an unbridled rage. Was it really that bad? Well, it is MAYBE a decent game by itself, but it is a horrible Paper Mario game, and that is a trend that the series will continue to have to date. The greatest artistic crimes it commits include completely disincentivizing battling enemies while taking out the really fun battle system of the original games as well as completely taking away the unique character designs and fun dialogue that made the Paper Mario series so special. It’s almost as if Nintendo had no idea why their fans took a liking to the series to begin with and just assumed they liked the haha funny paper gimmicks, so they decided to go all in on that. If you like being paper and that’s all you want from a Paper Mario game, then this is the game for you. It has it in spades.

Color Splash came along a few years later and while it was a noticeable improvement, it immediately reeked of Sticker Star in presentation as well as some gameplay elements. There was still no incentive for battling enemies, really, and the worlds were full of exclusively Toads rather than unique character designs. The dialogue was alright, I guess, but doesn’t even remotely resemble what fans have still been dying for since TTYD. I do want to point out that I thought Color Splash was genuinely a fun game, but it just doesn’t have any of what I want from Paper Mario. It’s an insult to fans to call it that just because Mario happens to be made out of paper in it. Get it outta here. Full disclosure, though, I barely played any of The Origami King, but from all that I’ve seen of it, it doesn’t in any way remedy the problems that I’ve had with the series since TTYD, so even though it may be a swell game in comparison to the previous two, I’m fine batching it in with the prequel trilogy here. At some point I’ll get around to playing through it, for sure, but for now I’ll stick to Bug Fables (an awesome indie game that shamelessly rips off the best qualities of the original games- almost like a spiritual successor for the fans).

I can only hope this isn’t the end of the Paper Mario story. There have been persisting rumors over the years of a true return to form for the series, but I continue to be disappointed, time and time again. One day, hopefully, I can be a Paper Mario fan with pride once again.

Videos I Posted This Week:

Box Art Battles! – Episode 5 [Shrek Edition] – Tarqaron ft. Rusty
Black Widow Review – Tarqaron
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 11 Reaction (The Leann Blindside) – Tarqaron
Smash Summit 11 was absolutely insane
Loki: Season 1 Review – Tarqaron
Is Dimash the greatest singer in the world?

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

24 hours to live

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What if you had 24 hours to live? What would you do? This is a question I’m sure you’ve asked yourself or have been asked at least one time in your life, but the question usually comes with some level of brevity, like oh man that would be wild, I would go bungee jumping or some shit, I would fuck some shit up, like fuck it bro, YOLO, I’d do some bucket list shit or some shit. But imagine you are really presented with this scenario. To not only be aware that it would be your last day alive but to also be completely coherent while knowing this fact is an “opportunity” not often afforded to people. You might be terminally ill, and you might be given some time frame as to when you’re expected to die in some very particular instances, but even then you are more often than not deteriorating on some level, and you certainly wouldn’t know when exactly you were going to die, down to the day! So as much as the “what would you do if you had 24 hours to live” quandary can just be a wacky conversation starter, it really can be a thought-provoking hypothetical dilemma when you take the time to think about it. It can be sad to think about what it would be like to know of your impending doom, but also really intriguing to try to put yourself in that position. And that’s exactly what I’m trying to do here.

My first priority would honestly be to show appreciation to everyone who has had a positive impact on my life. I already try to make a more conscious effort to do that regularly, just showing my appreciation whenever I can. But 24 hours to live means it’s crunch time. Cut the bullshit, tell everyone my full and unapologetic truth. If I appreciate you on any level you’ll be hearing from me, no doubt about it. That being said I have a lot of ground to cover, so that could range anywhere from a one-sentence message to a full-blown conversation. But no hard feelings regardless. This time would be reserved for anyone I wouldn’t be able to come in actual contact with on my final day. As tasteless as it might sound, I feel like I would have to put out an “I have 24 hours left to live” video on my YouTube channel with one last goodbye because making videos has undeniably been a huge part of my life and it would be only fitting.

With the formalities out of the way, I can go on with living the remaining hours of my life. With some pep in my step I feel like I could have condensed that goodbye stuff into only a couple of hours. What to do with the rest of my day, though? I don’t know, even though the instinct might be to try to check off bucket list things, I feel like that would be something reserved for if I had a year or even a week to live. Because realistically, as much as I want to see more of the world, I don’t think it would necessarily be worth it to spend a significant portion of my final hours stuck on plane ride to somewhere just to spend a couple hours there. So as much as I want to see Japan, or go to Disney World, it just might not be in the cards for this scenario. With most bucket list things off the table, I’ve been kind of stumped as to how I’d spend the majority of this day, but I think I’ve come to a bit of a conclusion.

As ridiculous as it sounds, I would 100% host my own “going away” party and invite literally everyone I care about to join me. Not just a basic party of course, it would have to be a tour de force of experiencing all of my favorite things, with everything from basketball to just some good old-fashioned laughs. The things I enjoy are pretty simple when it comes down to it. As much as I’d like the chance to expand my life experiences much more, this scenario wouldn’t give me enough time to, so I’d just have to live (and then not) with some of the simple things. That being said, I’d do those things in the most outrageous and off-the-wall ways possible, given the time that I have to work with and however many people are able to join me on such short notice. Especially given this opportunity, I’m not the kind of person who would go out quietly. I’d like for my last 24 hours to not only consist of some valuable experiences that I can be happy with *at the end of the day* but also to consist of some valuable experiences for everyone else involved to be able to walk away from and remember forever. If I’m gonna be given this unique opportunity, I might as well make the best of it, right?

Videos I Posted This Week:

Shrek Series Overview & Ranking – Tarqaron
Our June 2021 Favorites! – Tarqaron
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 10 Reaction (Scout’s Resistance) – Tarqaron

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Summit

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I am in crunch time today so I won’t be able to do any of the more elaborate blogs I talked about last time, but here I am nonetheless. The unfortunate reality is that as I sit here amidst this crunch time, since I have to work for the rest of the night, I really can’t think of anything to write about. For my own sanity I should really make a more conscious effort to give myself much more time to write these things. But hey, then I would probably be writing about one of the ideas I mentioned last week, then, wouldn’t I? Well, that’s the whole point, isn’t it? I can see I’m getting no where here.

As much as procrastination has been a problem for me in the past, it’s not actually procrastination that has left me with such limited time to write this time around. It’s actually because one of my favorite events to watch online, Smash Summit, was streaming all yesterday and today. And since I was working and then watching The Forever Purge with some friends yesterday (bad movie, by the way), I spent pretty much all day today just catching up on everything I missed plus enjoying everything that has been coming out for it today as well. I have it muted and still playing as I type this, because I just had to pull myself away for at least a little bit if I was going to have any chance of writing the blog today.

Smash Summit (this one specifically is Smash Summit 11) is a four-day event that brings together some of the best Super Smash Bros. Melee players (a 20-year-old game at this point, by the way) for a more intimate invitational tournament environment, which is also padded with a lot of fun side events and skits to round it out. Most notably it features a lot of the players playing games of Mafia at the end of each day, which is always one of my favorite parts of the event. Melee is my favorite game to watch competitively and Summit has always been my favorite event to watch because of the really unique vibe and superior production quality that it offers. This time around it will have the largest prize pool in Melee’s history and there are so many great players present this year that it has been a joy to watch thus far.

I honestly always wish I had thought to take off these days from work so I can watch it all live because there is just so much to catch up on after a whole day of work, on top of editing videos and everything else. But regardless I’m just excited to get home tonight so I can catch up on everything again!

In terms of my mental health, I’m still dealing with smoothing out the real low lows that I experience in any given week, but I am also working on maximizing the highs as well. Just trying to enjoy things more in the moment, but there are still some obvious steps I need to take to really improve many aspects of my life. A small first step would be to give myself more time to write these so I can start bringing out some of those ideas!

Videos I Posted This Week:

Luca Review – Tarqaron
Reacting to the Top 100 Songs of June 2021
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 9 Reaction (Estrogen City) – Tarqaron
Ball is life
This vocal coach gives me life (ft. So Hyang)

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Ideas

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I know I’ve kind of been saying this for a while now, but I’d like to have some more specific topics for blogs moving forward, with personal life/mental health sprinkled in there (since I won’t always have enough to say in that regard to fill a decent blog’s worth of content). Since I have limited time for this week’s blog, I thought I might use this opportunity to just rattle off some ideas of things I could talk about in future blogs. Some of these could end up being worked into videos instead potentially, but could work as blogs too. Pretty uninspired idea for this week’s blog, I guess, but let me know if any of this stands out to you or if there’s anything I’m not thinking of that could be interesting…

The Greatest Compliment I’ve Ever Received: This is an idea I’ve been tossing around in my head for some time now. The idea would be to actually have this be a collaborative thing, and get a bunch of my friends to send in submissions for this, just sharing the greatest compliment they’ve ever received. I thought it could be a fun little thing to do to promote some positive thinking and spread some good feelings rather than some of the more serious topics I have listed here. I think this would be a cool thing to do in video form as well, but I just don’t know if I’d be able to get people to send in video submissions for something like this. Regardless I really want to do more collaborative blog things like this Rick and Morty one I did back in 2017.

Does God Exist? And other such fun religious topics: Religion has always been an interesting topic to me. As someone who is firmly non-religious, I think I could go through some interesting thoughts on these topics in a personalized blog environment like this. I always wanted to do a video on my channel where I could discuss religion with one of my more religious friends back in the day, but it just never end ended up happening. I enjoy having meaningful conversations about stuff like this, so I think it would be fun to delve into for some more in-depth blogs.

What is the meaning of life? And other more focused philosophical questions: Philosophy is another thing I really enjoy pondering, but never have had much of an opportunity to delve into in a public setting. There are so many routes I can go down with this, and endless discussion to be had.

My experience in education: This is one that I’ve always envisioned as a series of videos I would do, but it just as easily could be translated to blog form if I’m feeling that more at the time. Basically, since I’m all done with my long history of public education I thought it could be cool to go in-depth talking about my experiences with each stage of education and putting it out there for the world to see. I’ve always thought this could be fun to do, and maybe therapeutic as well. I’ve never really seen anyone online do something quite like this, so I would definitely like to at some point, before I’ve forgotten everything in my old age.

My experience being involved in online communities: The internet has been a significant part of my life for most of my life at this point. I started being involved in different online communities around the age of 10 and haven’t stopped since, so I’ve been through quite a lot and met a lot of people I am still in contact with to this day. So I feel like there would be a lot of ground to cover here, just in recounting memories without any added message.

Talking about my passions in life, and principles that are most important to me: It could be interesting to really try to get to the heart of what motivates me in life and what things are most important to me, as well as just gushing about the things that I love.

Talking about specific games/movies/shows/music and how they have had an effect on me: This kind of blog would be reserved not just for any piece of media I’ve enjoyed but rather the ones that have really stuck with me since I experienced them, and which seemed to have a more profound effect on me.

More out-there topics, like hypothetical situations or alternate timeline talk (what if I never did this or what if I did that kind of stuff): Would love to go down rabbit holes of wild topics like this.

Well there you go! Those are just some ideas, and most of those I didn’t even have in mind until I started writing this, so thanks for that! Even just putting some of these ideas out there like this has gotten me more excited for the future of doing this blogs. Now it’s time to embark into some really uncharted territory and have some fun with this thing.

Videos I Posted This Week:

Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 8 Reaction (Ami’s Aura) – Tarqaron
Free Britney
Reviewing EVERY Shrek Short! – Tarqaron

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Groove

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Let’s talk about grooves. I’m not much of a dancer, but I know a thing or two about finding a groove. The odd thing about grooves, though, is that once you fall out of one, you might find yourself in a “funk.” I feel like that was the case with me doing videos on my solo channel a couple of years ago, and then with me doing videos on my solo channel a month ago. Once I get into doing videos consistently, I will stick to it for some period of time. But as soon as I fall off the horse and miss a week or two, then it all seems to halt. Now, as you can see below, it’s not like video production has halted for me at all. I have been pretty consistent with Tarqaron videos ever since its inception really, and that might because we have a specific scheduled time for that each week that we rarely stray from and therefore I always have something to work on for the channel. When I came back to my solo channel a couple of months ago I fully intended to post every week for the foreseeable future, and even though I knew it would be a lot of work on top of Tarqaron videos, I was determined to make it work. But something about this summer heat seemed to discourage me a bit from wanting to stuff myself in a small room more than I needed to. Then again, that’s why I wanted to film outside more often. I just need to figure out a better spot to do so.

So that’s what I mean by grooves. Once I find myself in a groove, I’m on fire. And with Tarqaron I have yet to really lose that groove, but it comes in waves with my solo channel, especially since I have to balance both. I hope to get back to solo videos soon enough, but that’s something that I’ve definitely come to notice, that once you fall off the horse it’s just so easy to stay off the horse. That’s maybe why I’ve been so determined to get this blog out on time every week for the past five months. Because maybe, just maybe if I miss one then I’ll start to miss them all. And I don’t want to start that domino effect if I can avoid it. This ties back into the idea of establishing a more consistent schedule and how that could be helpful in the long-run as well. Keeping myself in that groove is always good, which is why if I can get myself back in that groove then I will be golden.

Honestly I had one of my worst days mentally in a long time this past week. A couple of things triggered some weak points for me, I guess you could say, and it really weighed on me. As crushing as it felt on that day, I just went for a drive to give myself my own space to deal with everything and listened to some music to just let it all out. Sometimes it’s good to just let it all out. But hey, I had that rough day and now I try to just move on. Trying not to dwell on these things as much, but sometimes that’s easier said than done. One day at a time.

Videos I Posted This Week:

E3 2021: Capcom Review – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Nintendo Review – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Bandai Namco Review & Final Thoughts – Tarqaron
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 7 Reaction (Happy Rory) – Tarqaron
Shrek The Musical Review – Tarqaron
In the Heights Review – Tarqaron

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Some Day

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Watching In the Heights has really got me thinking about life and putting things in perspective, aha… The movie was such a treat from beginning to end but some of the themes really resonated with me and tie into things I’ve been thinking about anyway. It’s always tough for me to look at where I’m at in life and think about what could have been, had I just made a couple of changes here and there or pushed myself a little more.

Making videos is the one thing I’m passionate about at the moment, and I’m no where near being able to have that as a career, so I really have no idea what I want to do in life. It feels bad to say that, at almost 25. I’m at the age where I should be right in the thick of a young career and having the time of my life, but I just feel lost. It’s very similar to how I feel about my college experience, I feel like I’ll look back in a few years and really regret not using my time better. Toward the end of last year, I was struggling with depression but felt like I was on the verge of figuring my life out a bit. But the beginning of this year really kicked my ass mentally and set me back a few notches for sure. I initially felt like I had composed myself and made significant progress from where I was at the very beginning of the year, but have since uncovered how much I had really been affected by everything, even all these months later. I struggle to look forward to the future because I’m always worrying about the past, thinking about all of the regret I have collected. I wasted so much energy on people who never really cared about me, wasted so much time on unproductive nonsense, and wasted years when I could have been doing so much more with my life. I guess it’s stupid to live with regret because that doesn’t help me do what I need to do to move forward now, but I realistically can’t help myself.

I’ve always been an introspective person, but I find myself just thinking a lot recently, but probably to an unhealthy degree in the sense that I have become hypersensitive about every aspect of my life and the more thought I put into everything, the worse I tend to feel. I really hope I can be happy with myself and my life some day, because right now it is just so hard to see. Am I capable of happiness? Sure. Do I experience moments of happiness pretty much every day? Sure, but they just feel like momentary distractions from the reality of my situation rather than any actual reflection of my mental well-being, if that makes any sense. Some day happiness will be the norm for me rather than the exception. Some day.

I would like to take this opportunity to once again thank everyone who has been a positive force in my life in general, but in these past few months especially. Nowadays negativity can really take a toll on me so I try to cherish every positive interaction that I have.

Videos I Posted This Week:

Our May 2021 Favorites! – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Ubisoft Review – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Gearbox Review – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Xbox/Bethesda Review – Tarqaron
E3 2021: Square Enix Review – Tarqaron

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Complacency

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Oof, I’m rushing to get this blog out in time yet again, but this time I’m outside for it! And what nice weather it is for it, even at 11:30 at night. Ever since I’ve gotten that “active” bug again, I’ve taken pretty much any excuse to go outside that I can get. The only thing stopping me from doing more videos outside is the onslaught of bugs in the particular area I have to do them in. If I could find a local peaceful area that I could set up in real quick to do some nice relaxing videos that would be great. I really just need a place where I can set my laptop and lil tripod and I’ll be set. You might have noticed nothing but Tarqaron videos the past couple of weeks and no videos on my solo channel, and that certainly hasn’t gone unnoticed by me. The reality of the situation is that I already coop myself up for a few hours to do Tarqaron videos on my day off, and since I’m not really able to run air conditioning while doing videos because of the obnoxious background noise, I’d just rather not sweat in a small space for longer than I have to. That’s why outside would be my preferred area for filming videos whenever possible, so that I can at least be out in the fresh air and heat rather than sitting in a small, hot room. So once I iron out these pesky logistics of making videos, I’ll be golden. In the mean time there has been no shortage of videos really, they’ve all just been in the Tarqaron format.

As much as I appreciate the small victories like breathing some fresh air, I continue to struggle with feeling like a failure and having regrets about many aspects of my life. As long as I remain complacent as I have been in many ways, I think I’ll continue to feel this way in one way or another. Complacency can really bog you down, and for someone like me who is most happy when I can express my creativity, complacency is a true killer. The monotonous, uncreative elements of my life wear on me and can be really draining at times. I enjoy the fun little activities and video things I do each week, and being around people I enjoy spending time with, but I feel like I could use a major shake-up in my life to spice things up a bit. There’s a weird paradox where I want to establish more of a routine along with a consistent sleeping schedule, but I also don’t want to be stuck in too much of a routine because I feel like I’m missing out on a lot, and many of my regrets stem from missing out on a lot in the past! I just want to live life to the fullest and I don’t know if I ever truly have.

I need to stop being complacent. I just need to push myself.

Videos I Posted This Week:

Tarqaron All-Stars 2 Reunion Special ft. Rusty
Cruella Review – Tarqaron ft. Rusty
Survivor: Vanuatu Ep. 6 Reaction (Finding Cracks) – Tarqaron
Puss in Boots Review – Tarqaron
Intro to the TRUE Gents Challenge 2021 – Tarqaron ft. Ryan

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

A Breath of Fresh Air

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Man, people are capable of some pretty horrible stuff, huh? I’ve been watching videos on some combination of outrageous and vile crimes this past week and even though I get hooked on those kinds of videos every now and then, I still find humans’ fascination with the topic of horrific crimes so hard to wrap my head around. Some of the stuff I’ve watched/read about is really disturbing and horrible to hear about, and yet I continue to look into new stories. I’m not sure what it is exactly that brings people back to these awful real-life horror stories time and time again but damn does it really put you in a different headspace for a while. In a sense it makes you appreciate simple things like the comfort of your own home just a bit more. I don’t know, kind of random, but I JUST watched some episodes of the show Panic 9-1-1 before writing this, so it’s top of mind for me right now.

Anyways, on to more of this week. I’ve fallen a bit behind on editing for Tarqaron and haven’t recorded any videos for my channel in a while but that’s alright. I think the biggest thing I’ve taken away from this week is that I had really forgotten how good it feels to be active. I’ve been working on going outside and playing basketball with my friend more regularly and I’ve found that to be refreshing, for sure. Honestly, as much as I’ve always been the nerd whose hobbies largely revolve around sitting inside, I’ve always had a love for doing things outdoors, especially with good company. Basketball and frisbee almost never get old. And in an ideal world I’d have my own little spot to spend time outside every day if I could. It’s well into the night at this point and I would’ve opted to type this outside if not for the fact that it’s raining right now. As sad as it sounds, it has literally been years since going outside and being active in any way, shape or form were a part of my routine at all. I guess it’s time for me to turn over a new leaf again.

That being said, I still love me some nerdy indoor activities, and I’ve been sorely lacking in that department as well. In my ideal world, I’d have a schedule that perfectly balances video-making time, outdoors time, and movie/show/game time mixed with time to spend with friends. Right now I just feel like so much of my days are going to waste, but getting back to some regularly-scheduled outdoors time is definitely a step in the right direction. If I could fully fix my sleep schedule in accordance with that it would definitely help matters as well. If anyone ever wants to play some basketball or frisbee with me, I’ll pretty much always be down.

Videos I Posted This Week:

Survivor: Vanuatu – Episode 5 (Bubba Blunders) | Tarqaron Reaction
Shrek Forever After | Tarqaron Review (w/ Spoilers)

Things I Enjoyed This Week:

Rushing

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Oh jeez it’s crunch time oh jeez. I’m rushing to see if there’s any way I could possibly get this out in time because I just realized, at literally the last hour, that it is Friday and I don’t want to break my streak if I can avoid it. So hoo boy, here come some rushed thoughts. Looks like I won’t be able to come through on that promise from last week of coming up with a more focused and well-thought out topic ahead of time. Whoops! Sorry about that. Guess I’m just embracing the crazy at this point. Why do I feel the need to be so serious in these blogs every week, anyway? I guess something about writing so bluntly about what’s going on with me mentally doesn’t lend itself to the lightest of tones, but if you didn’t know me and just read these blogs you would think I am just a miserable person with nothing going for myself, wouldn’t you?

And hey, that’s only a minor facet of my personality. Really, around my friends I can be pretty wacky and I love to make people laugh. I don’t think you’d get that impression at all from my blogs. Maybe this is the secret sauce my blogs have been missing all this time, approaching them in a more unpredictable manner and throwing caution to the wind. Not getting hung up on each sentence and stressing over the minutia of certain phrasing and what not. A true typing-whatever-I’m-thinking style in approach. This could be quite liberating, actually. Though I’m still aware that there are certain topics I’d like to cover which should be handled with a bit more thought and will keep that in mind. I’ve never really typed in such a freeform way, so it’s worth a shot for sure.

Bringing it back to my personality and how it is/isn’t reflected in my writing style here… back in grade school I made a bit of a name for myself for writing comedic fictional stories for creative writing assignments in class. I’ve kind of lost that since then, in terms of writing for sure, but I still love to make people laugh whenever I can. I just haven’t channeled it into my writing in a while. In my public speaking class in college I did comedic, semi-improvised speeches which was a new way of using that same kind of energy, and that was refreshing for sure. A class which I always dreaded having to take ended up making up some of the highlights of my college experience. Unexpected, for sure. I’d like to elaborate a bit on one of those highlights in a future segment I’d like to incorporate, either in writing or video form. More on that in the future!

Well wow, this was really short but it was a thrill. This is some of the most fun I’ve had in a while with this so I’d definitely like to bring this same kind of energy forward, maybe even with some of the more serious topics. We’ll see! But I’d definitely like to at least channel this energy into blogs when I’ve given myself more time to let my thoughts flow rather than cram it all into a short timeframe (though this was fun). I’ve been getting to know some great people and I appreciate the great people I’ve gotten to spend time with this week! Even got out and played some basketball for the first time in years! Say YES to physical activity woohoo! I’m hoping to make that a weekly thing as well, that was a blast. As much as it may seem like it, I’m not just a couch potato. I have LAYERS, like ogres and onions and all that. God bless Shrek.

Videos I Posted This Week:

My thoughts on the past year of Pentatonix music!
Survivor: Vanuatu – Episode 4 (In Awe of Da) | Tarqaron Reaction
Watching Sof’s music video for Bloom
Shrek the Third | Tarqaron Review (w/ Spoilers)

Things I Enjoyed This Week: